So, I’d love for someone to weigh in and tell me what to do.
I feel okay most of the time. I am getting enough sleep (midnight till noon, basically). We go for at least three walks a week, and leave the house every day, even if just to walk to the library or reservoir. I generally visit with at least one friend a week. I don’t cry every day – in fact, I rarely cry at all. We read books and play ‘kiss your face’ and start mom&baby yoga this week. The day to day stuff is fine, and as the baby gets older, she gets more fun. Also, I bought a baby tracking app that, while making me look like that mother, has been super, SUPER helpful. Jess needs to heading for sleep after being awake for 2 hours, and eats every 2-3 hours. Knowing that she will fuss a bunch and then pass out at a predictable time is wonderful.
I go in for one of my endless doctor’s appointments (and they’re now all about me – she’s flourishing) and within a minute of sitting down I start crying, and cry for the rest of the appointment. Medication has been suggested, more than once.
So. The quandary. I feel mostly fine as long as I don’t go to the doctor’s office / talk about my feelings in any great detail. So, does that mean I just stop going to the doctors appointments? After all, they make me feel much worse than my day to day life does.
Or is that the depression talking?
This is an honest question. I know that I can no longer see anything related to this clearly.